Addict

I was an addict. I am an addict. I will always be an addict.
I got used to be an addict, because it made me feel relief. Relief that I don’t need to face myself and realise who I am and who I am hurting.

When I put a spike into my vein
And I’ll tell ya, things aren’t quiete the same

Even tho I’m not an addict right now and never was of the big stuff. I am looking for something to cope the desire. Music is kind of helping. Not with coping, but accepting. I feel sorry for all the people in my life. Sorry for what I have become. Sorry for what I will be.

Heroin, be the death of me
Heroin, it’s my wife and it’s my life

I don’t want the addiction define who I am. Not anymore. I want to make decisions with a clear mind and a soul full of love, but for now I am alive and that’s enough.