I need to be honest…

I need to be honest.. Music has always had a huge part in my life. It saved me when I was at my lowest. Not even once. It was my safe place in high school. But lately, I didn’t appreciate it as much as I used to. I mean, sadly I kinda took it for granted these past few years. But today, for the first time in ages I felt that thing again. You know.. that feeling when you get lost in the lyrics and you just let it go through your veins. I haven’t felt it in a long time and I’m just so glad it’s there again ‘cause that’s what saved me. It helped me through the worst days of my life once again and I couldn’t be more grateful for that. It was my first love and it’s like I’m just getting back to that now. And with PL starting today, it really feels like I’m back where I belong. To music and football. If it wasn’t for music…I don’t know where I would be right now. I just know that it gives me strength to keep going and I just decided I won’t give a fuck anymore. Life is short so let’s try to make the most of it and not be worried about stuff all the time. Like who cares? I think this line was my turning point: “If I have to feel this forever, I’d rather feel nothing at all” That’s exactly what I was thinking years ago and that’s why I got to a place where nothing could hurt me anymore.

“You’re not as hopeless as you think
You mean everything
Let music take away the pain
To be your infinite escape”