July 5th, 2016.

Two years ago, on October 16th, 2014, I went to my very first concert ever. I was 13, hyped up on coffee and adrenaline, and high on anticipation. It was a really small venue, I had pit tickets. It was the Dallas House of Blues, and when I walked up I saw a sign for the band I was seeing. I had half of my face painted like a sugar skull, the other side was done in very elegant makeup, and I had on long socks with skulls on them. I remember waiting in line for about an hour and a half, (if not more) and finally going inside. There was excitement pouring out of my body, I couldn’t keep still. I got a ton of people asking if it was my first concert, and I remember one guy in particular who told me “Well then kid, You picked a damn good one to come to.” The tiny little venue quickly filled up, and there were people pressing against me on all sides it was so crowded. We waited for a little bit while the opening band was setting up, and we danced and jumped along when they played their set. By the time they went off stage, the room was filled with excited energy. It was like someone injected straight coffee into everyone’s veins. I was nervous and excited and emotional, and then, on walked the two men who saved my life. I was within arms reach of the stage. I was within arms reach of Tyler Joseph and Josh Dun.  It was the best moment of my life. I sang along to every single song, and a lot of people asked how I could keep up and sing along. I always said “When the music is this powerful, how can you not?” One of the most memorable things about that night though, was when they played Migraine. There was a moment, and to me it felt like thousands of years, where Tyler looked at me. Now, in all fairness, he might not have been looking at me specifically, but it sure seemed like it. I was in tears by the end of the song. ( Migraine is an extremely important song to me.)

Fast forward to yesterday, July 5th 2016. The same excitement, the same band, the same intense gratitude. This time, I was with my Best friend, ( @mesavbutt ) I had lawn tickets this time, in a venue that was giant. I had already bought a shirt and a poster, and once again I could not contain my excitement. The last time I went to see them, I had scars that were barely healed, and I had a heavy heart and a need to be saved. This time, I had scars that were fading away and a heart full of love and happiness. We waited and sat through the two opening bands, and when Twenty One Pilots finally came on stage, I was tearing up a little. Again, I cried. I was sobbing by the middle of Migraine (Again) and 3 times after that. It was honestly amazing. I connect so much to the line “We’ve made it this far, kid” Like at that moment I felt like it had been written just for me. I felt like it was Tyler and Josh saying “Look at how far you’ve come in two years. Look at how much better you are now than you were back then, stay alive.” It was a magical and amazing and I will never be able to express the gratitude I have for these two dorks. Honestly, they are my idols and my role models. They are the reason I’m alive today, and I just want the chance to thank them for that.

To everyone out there struggling and fighting, keep going. I believe in you. Stay strong, live on, and power to the local dreamer.